Tuesday, October 23, 2007

week #5---B!

In this final section of Wasted; Marya shows that even at 55 pounds, she was never happy with her weigh. Although she still cannot pinpoint the exact reason that she decided to reclaim (somewhat) her health, after her admittance to her final hospital she was able to pull her self together and start her long journey ahead. Marya will never truly ever be able to recover from her eating disorders, to this day she still manages her food and sees a therapist regularly. She also manages to tell at the end of the novel that she does not have a fairytale or "all loose ends tied up" conclusion; but yet just a never dieing anorexia and bulimia struggle. I really learned a lot from Wasted, it taught me that no matter how hard we try to escape our past and struggles, they will only be healed by time.

POST A~#5

VOCABULARY~
talisman(218)-an object held to act as a charm to avert evil and bring good fortune
blitzkriegs(202)-war conducted with great speed and force

APPEALS~

“MARYA JUSTINE HORNBACHER.F.DOB 04-04-74
I. AXIS I:
A. Bulimia nervosa,307.51 (w/anorectic features)
B. Substance abuse, 305.00
C. Major Depression, 296.22” (142) This is obviously an logical appeal, it shows Marya’s medical records from her first stint at the Methodist Hospital’s eating disorder unit. Marya is showing the readers that although she may be thinking otherwise, it is medically proven that she definitely had some serious issues. It also connects all of her issues into one, and although they are separate they are very similar.

"I was throwing up every meal in suitcase, or out the window,"(182) This an emotional appeal because it shows Marya's desperation. Although she may be in an intense eating disorder hospital, she still, just by shear will, found was to still maintain her bulimia status. Marya eventually stopped this habit by turning anorexic later on.

"We find another turning point...by that time, my personality, and the very simple, inescapable eating disorder itself, It was habit by then."(230) This is an emotional appeal, it shows how Marya is now looking at her eating disorder. Although Marya may be able to go to a million rehab centers, she will always be thinking about her weigh. This is an important place in the book because it keys into Marya's future life with an eating disorder.


QUOTE~

"He leaned down and whispered to me: No matter how thin you get, no matter how short you cut your hair, it's still going to be you underneath."(205) This quote is very significant in this novel, it shows one of the basic ideas or themes of Wasted by Marya Hornbacher. Although Marya was not the person to say so, it helped show that throughout her teenage years she was constantly trying to be someone else instead of thriving in her own skin. It seems that although her times out of hospitals were scarce, she understood that if only she would just enjoy her life and body now she will be happier.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

POST B ! #4

This section of Wasted by Marya Hornbacher made me realize that an eating disorder can happen to any type of person. If I had to say the first that came to my mind when I thought of an anorexic or bulimic person, I would say an artistic, pale, model want to be. As a tri-sport athlete I always thought that no matter what, there is absolutely no possible earthly way that a person with my lifestyle would EVER have an eating disorder; wow was I wrong! "Eating disordered athletes in particular seem to have this idea -but they speak in a bizarre almost proactive tone, as if they have always intended to stop.”[135] Marya also in this chapter went through a rough patch with her health. She not only fainted and was checked into the school infirmary, but she also at the school MORP (kind of prom) threw-up blood. At that point all of the dormitory supervisors had been fed up with Marya’s excuses for not being well. “one of the chaperons…Marya, you’re full of shit.”(132) After this throwing up blood incident, Marya was sent to the nurse. Her parents were called and told that she had been probably taken diet pills that had not agreed with her stomach. This was also the end of the line for many of Marya’s friends, as they would plea with the administrators to stop Marya; they did nothing. But the main thing I learned from this section of Wasted is that an eating disorder can happen to anyone, anywhere.

POST a -#4

Vocabulary
Masochism[124]~pleasure in being abused or dominated : a taste for suffering
Psychedelic[124]~of, relating to, or being drugs (as LSD) capable of producing abnormal psychic effects (as hallucinations) and sometimes psychotic states b: produced by or associated with the use of psychedelic drugs

Appeals:
***"My god! people say. You have so much self-control! And later: My god. You are so,so sick. When people say this, when they turn their heads, you've won your little game. " [124] This is obviously an emotional appeal because it gives the reader an idea of what Marya was striving for, not just self-control but to really hurt herself. This shows the audience that the author is truly not just slightly controlled by this disease but fully.
***"They periodically took my blood pressure and...congratulated me on my (dangerously low, I will soon find out) blood pressure..."[130] This is a logical appeal because it tells the reader how sick Marya really was and how most of her medically advice back then was truly hurtful and wrong. This also added to the "I was really truly sick" idea that Marya tends to bash her readers with.
***" There are people reading this who may think to themselves: What if i just tried it? What if i just lost a few more pounds? After all, she's still alive... Not quite."[129] This appeal is emotional because it shows Marya's significant effort to stop this disease, anorexia. It definitely bashes all ideas of any future anorexics to jump into this vicious cycle.

Quote:
"Eating disordered athletes in particular seem to have this idea -but they speak in a bizarre almost proactive tone, as if they have always intended to stop. "[135] This quote is significant because it really shows that an eating disorder can happened to even athletes. Not just people that are not in arts, or modeling. This quote really hit me hard because throughout this whole novel i have been somewhat laughing at the idea of a girl like me, a committed athlete, ever getting an eating disorder. I am forever changed.

Monday, October 15, 2007

400 Blows

The 400 Blows by Francois Truffaut was a very effective and well made film. Today, many pictures are either, “chick-flicks” or “man movies”. But this 1959 feature related to both sexes with a dramatic and climatic story-line. 400 Blows was effective because it taped into emotions and helped you relate to the main character, Antoine. It really captured the audience from the real world into nineteenth century France, letting their imaginations run wild.

The choices of the author/director for the literacy aspects were mostly excellent; some of theses aspects include, plot, characters, setting, themes, and symbols. Some endearing qualities of the 400 Blows’ plot were that it was a steady slope up throughout the movie, which lead the audience to be teetering on the edge of their seats. Another well organized characteristic of 400 Blows is the characters. Antoine, Gilberte, Julian, Mr. Bigey, and Rene; provided a nice variety of acting styles, personalities, and looks. This aspect really provided the audience with a sense of diversity. The setting was also very appropriate for this film because it took place in the very romantic and joyful city of Paris. This aspect really helped show where Antoine was most happy, while once he was moved to the harsher environment of the Mediterranean; he was not nearly as content. The themes and symbols were mostly connected; as one symbol/theme was the lighting. While in a happy moment or place, the lighting would be bright and the music would be upbeat. But there could also been a couple more themes; it would have made this film yet more interesting! The choices of the director in the literacy aspect were mostly well planned and moved in seamlessly with the other aspects of 400 Blows.

The dramatic aspects of 400 Blows include the selection of actors, costume and make-up, set design, and lighting. The casting of actors in 400 Blows included many good and bad choices. One excellent actor decision was from the character of Antoine Doinel. The character was meant to be portrayed as rebellious, emotional; which Jean-Pierre Leaud very much achieved with his half bad boy, half teddy bear acting styles. Another good character pick was for the casting of the French teacher, Guy Decomble. This was a good decision because his way of showing the teacher as a strict and very bias man, really fit in well and helped the story evolve. But the casting staff was not all right; one character that could have been chosen better is Gilbrette Doinel. The mother character was supposed to be played as a mean, self absorbed character; but at times Gilbrette Doinel “flipped flopped” her image from sketchy woman, to a normal fun-loving mom.

In 400 blows the cinematic aspects were for the most part very appropriate. Some of theses selections were for photography, camera movement, duration of shots, and sound. The photography of 400 Blows was interesting in that its perspective changed throughout the film. The director had two main distance and angle characteristics; one where the camera is looking down on Antoine, then another that the audience is looking at eye level with him. The first selection with the looking down view is mainly used when Antoine is being rebellious and acting childish. The other photography choice was used when the main character is acting mature and independent. This last view point gave the audience a sense of connection with the young boy. Another cinematic aspect that was important in 400 Blows was the camera movement. Through most of the movie, the camera moves along with Antoine fluidly and smoothly. But the camera at times, moved choppily when Antoine was in an “unhappy” situation. One aspect of this film that could have been helped is in the duration of shots selection. The timing was extremely off sometimes; this error left the audience bored and praying for a cut. An example of this is when Antoine is running away from boot camp; this shot went on for about forever! If only they had cut it off after they’re point got across it would have been more interesting. But a final really helpfully aspect of 400 Blows was the music. The way that they had the beat rise when Antoine was being rebellious, and slowing it down when he was behaving; heightened the audience’s emotions. Overall the choices of the director in the cinematic aspects were excellent; but at times they also could have perfected.

The 400 Blows and Richard Wright’s Black Boy are very much similar in their main conflicts, characters, and point-of-view. Theses two stories’ conflicts are similar in that they are in a constant struggle with some force; weather it may be a harsh family life or a racially discriminating time period, theses boys are always up against something. The main characters both also had very awkward family situations and a harsh home. They were also very alike in that they were both young at some point and rebellious. Both of theses memoir also had similar point-of-views in that the main character never showed the other view of the outside world but yet only their own. The 400 Blows and Richard Wright’s Black Boy were also very alike in other ways but the main similarities were in the conflict, characters, and point-of-view.

A recommendation to” go see this now!”is definitely in order for this film, 400 Blows. As long as you can speak fluent French and are a true black and white movie fan, then you will beyond doubt appreciate this movie. The plot, characters, setting, and themes selection was amazing and helped this motion picture suck the audience in. But although many may adore this movie, some may absolutely dread it! Basically if you cannot speak French or can not read subtitles, hate black and white movies, or can not appreciate sad films then I recommend not going to 400 Blows. But for the most part audience should like and care for this famous film.

Work Cited:
Truffaut, François. “400 Blows.” Dir. François Truffaut.
Wright, Richard. « Black Boy
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Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Dear Marya,
I am really enjoying your novel Wasted. At points your “beating over the head” of the idea that an eating disorder is tough and deadly, can be a bit much but overall it is an interesting read. I would like to hear more about your life at boarding school too.
But as I read on in this section I realized more and more that boarding school for you was a very hazardous place, more so than Southview Middle School. It seemed as though your disorder took a dramatic turn for the worst and was affecting and turning your life upside down. Even your strange semi issued roommate and friends noticed your ridicule eating habits. “STOP THAT RIGHT NOW!”(117) they would say to a self-destructive soul as yourself. And although you knew that you had a major problem, you were never able to fully grasp the altitude of the disorder. I thought it was interesting how your eating disorder turned you to chain smoking, drugs, and sex. In this section you told us a little bit more about your love life and your selection of younger boys. You also mentioned briefly, your drug problems with speed and alcohol. It is really sad how your life got even more screwed up with boarding school, even though your intention was to get away and get grounded. I enjoyed the part in this section that mentioned your trips to town. I hope to hear more about your life outside of anorexia and bulimia!

Sincerely,
CM:]

POST B; week #3!

VOCAB!:
Appendage(108)-n. an adjunct to something larger or more important
Entity(109)-n. something that has separate and distinct existence and objective or conceptual reality

APPEALS:
~~“Of course I didn’t know then that I had all the obvious signs of having an eating disorder: strange combinations of food, eating other people’s leftovers, skipping meals.”(107) Although this quote may not be relevant to everyone, it is definitely to me. As I know someone that has many of theses habits, it was easy to finally understand what she is going through. This quote is an emotional appeal because it shows how Marya now understands her signs of bulimia. Although once she realizes her disorder, she becomes more aggravated in that she doesn’t want to be bulimic, but anorexic and hence doesn’t want to stop her dangerous habits.
~~“Later in the year, there will be a few girls who defect: We’re all just getting way too obsessed, she’ll, nibbling her apple,”(106) Being a teenager I know how it feels to know and understand that everything is terribly wrong, but yet somehow you are never able to change it. This is definitely an emotional appeal because it helps to show how Marya along with her other dieting friends realize how bad their dieting is, but yet aren’t strong enough to stop it.
~~“Up to that point, the bulimia had had a life of its own. It was purely an emotional response to the world –under pressere, binge and purge; sad and lonely, binge and purge; feeling hungry, binge and purge- and actually had little to do, believe it or not, with a desire to lose weight.”(108) Marya had no control over her bulimia or eating disorder at all before this point in the novel where she started to take a terrible turn to anorexia. This is an emotional appeal because it shows how Marya was feeling and how she started to lose totally control of her addiction.

Quote:
“When a study was done on a group of young, healthy men whose caloric intake was cut to just under a thousand calories, they began … to purge, and –interestingly enough-they became incredibly worried about their weight, the shape of their bodies, and began to diet.”(122) This is a fairly important quote because it demonstrates the fact that an eating disorder can happen to anyone! It is not something that can be classified into a gender, race, or age group, but yet a universal addiction.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Dear Marya Hornbacher,

It's me again, you most think I am a totally creeper. Well anyways, I was just reading your novel again and found it incredibly interesting your view on your life with boys. In middle school many girls, if any at all, barely ever have boyfriends. But we you it was obviously different! When you told your readers about how much of a slut you were, it really showed me how honest you were.

I also loved your story about how your parents were totally clueless when it came to being parents. “at dinner, I said MomandDadIhavesomethingtotellyou…I’ve been making myself throw up” … my mother said, “I used to do that.”(82)I could relate to your quote because many students at Edina have very much, clueless parents. So showed me how much your mom really had no perception of the toll that an eating disorder takes on a body. Its actually really sad that your parents still never took you seriously.

Your book so far has really helps me understand the nature of an eating disorder. You do not just give the hard core facts that you can find in any health book, but also the extreme emotional toll that anorexia and bulimia take on a person.

Sincerely,
CM

POST A..week #2

VOCAB:
Caustic(66)- capable of destroying or eating away by chemical action
Paradox(64)- a tenet contrary to received opinion

APPEALS:
1.“She snorts cocaine in her flowered room to keep from giving in to sleep, a weakness, and she, already too weak, refuses to give in.”(86). This appeal clearly shows emotional appeal because it shows the struggle that Marya had with drugs, its connection to bulimia and self control. The readers then want to know how the heck the author got to this disaster of a place in her life.
2.”I was the problem. But we never wondered why I was the problem”(66) This appeal shows emotional appeal again because Marya is telling the readers how her parents know she has a problem, but cant help her fix it.
3.”I was bingeing, alone, whenever I could, with whatever money I had”(82) This appeal is obviously emotional again because Marya is telling the readers how desperate she was and to how much of an extreme she had reached.

QUOTE:
“My life split in half, finally and definitively, right here, seventh grade…I began to run toward the vanishing point”(64) This an extremely important quote because Marya is pin-pointing the exact point in her life of permanent anorexia, that she jumped over to somewhat controlled to uncontrollable. After this point Marya gave up on bulimia and commenced her journey with anorexia. It is amazing how young she was when she started to run toward her death.

THEME:
So far the theme has remained the same; Marya’s struggle and failure to de-attach her life from anorexia.